It has been a while since I wrote down my thoughts on my devotions and religious walk, but today I heard something that got me thinking and I wanted to make sure I shared it.
I was watching this movie today and one of the characters shared this parable. He said two farmers prayed to God for rain so that they could grow their crops, but only one man went out and prepared his field for the rain. Then of course the question was asked which man had faith that God was going to send rain? I realized that in my own life I may ask God for things or for God to show me the right path but I don't prepare myself for him to do so. In my past experiences I may have ask God to help me over come something or to guide me to the path he chose for me, but then I just keep doing the same thing I have always done. I ask him to help me over come something but don't prepare myself for him to send his rain to cleanse me of that sin. I ask him to guide me in where I should go but don't prepare myself to hear is answer or see where he is choosing to lead me. If we ask God for something we need to prepare are selves for his answer, we need to be faithful and ready to receive his blessing. We need to prepare are fields for his rain of blessings.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
Hearing the Whisper
Lately when trying to decide if the path I am taking is God's will or my own I've have been having a hard time knowing what God is telling me. In this fast past, noisy world full of techniology and sounds all around us, I wonder how I can hear God.
In the bible it mentions mutliple times of people being spoken to by God but each time he comes as a whisper. To samuel as a small boy it was a soft voice calling to him in the night. To Elijah on the mount God's voice was not in the wind, the earthquake or the fire but in a soft whisper. In Isaiah 30:21 it says, "And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This [is] the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.
I wonder how I can know when God is speaking to me and how I can know it is truly him. I try to sit silently and listen after prayer waiting to see if I will hear God or if a voice in my head will bring me some resolution but my mind begins to wander. I am unable to stay focused as my mind begins to wander off and wonder what I am missing out on in the fast passed world as I sit here in silence and the world moves on without me.
While driving home the other day and wondering what my next move should be I turned of my radio and just drove. In the silence I heard nothing, but it gave me no peace. My mind was never easied, I felt more over whelmed and confused by the silence then at peace with it. After trying to sit in silence but feeling more confused by it I began to feel guilty, ashamed even. I was unable to hear God. How could I fix this? What did I need to do to be able to hear him? where had it all gone wrong? It became clear to me to truly know when it is God speaking to you, even amoungest the noise, you must first know God. I realized I could not just come out of know where and say "God tell me what to do" and expect an immediate answer, when for so long I had been ignoring God. I may pray over my food every once in a while, say thank you for helping me find my car keys, go to church every week, but I neglected to get to know God personally. I did not take the time to understand the sound of God's voice.
I can understand what my nephews are saying and even what my patients at work (who have speech troubles) are trying to tell me because I have taken the time to learn their voice. If I had not been patient and sat with them and listened to what they were saying I would have never learned how to hear them. It is the same with God. I need to sit down day by day and take the time to get to know him so I understand the sound of his voice, so I can learn to hear his whisper.
In the bible it mentions mutliple times of people being spoken to by God but each time he comes as a whisper. To samuel as a small boy it was a soft voice calling to him in the night. To Elijah on the mount God's voice was not in the wind, the earthquake or the fire but in a soft whisper. In Isaiah 30:21 it says, "And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This [is] the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.
I wonder how I can know when God is speaking to me and how I can know it is truly him. I try to sit silently and listen after prayer waiting to see if I will hear God or if a voice in my head will bring me some resolution but my mind begins to wander. I am unable to stay focused as my mind begins to wander off and wonder what I am missing out on in the fast passed world as I sit here in silence and the world moves on without me.
While driving home the other day and wondering what my next move should be I turned of my radio and just drove. In the silence I heard nothing, but it gave me no peace. My mind was never easied, I felt more over whelmed and confused by the silence then at peace with it. After trying to sit in silence but feeling more confused by it I began to feel guilty, ashamed even. I was unable to hear God. How could I fix this? What did I need to do to be able to hear him? where had it all gone wrong? It became clear to me to truly know when it is God speaking to you, even amoungest the noise, you must first know God. I realized I could not just come out of know where and say "God tell me what to do" and expect an immediate answer, when for so long I had been ignoring God. I may pray over my food every once in a while, say thank you for helping me find my car keys, go to church every week, but I neglected to get to know God personally. I did not take the time to understand the sound of God's voice.
I can understand what my nephews are saying and even what my patients at work (who have speech troubles) are trying to tell me because I have taken the time to learn their voice. If I had not been patient and sat with them and listened to what they were saying I would have never learned how to hear them. It is the same with God. I need to sit down day by day and take the time to get to know him so I understand the sound of his voice, so I can learn to hear his whisper.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
not good enough
This blog was started to try and keep me on track. Give me an outlet and away to share what i'm learning as I work on making my relationship with God stronger. The world we live in makes this very difficult and I have failed over and over again. I continue to go back to my old sins and I forget to turn to the one who created me and has always wanted whats best for me. I find it hard to follow the right path or even decide what the right path really is until it is to late, and I am so far off of it I don't know which way to turn.
Tonight I am not discussing a devotinal I have recently read or a song I have heard. Tonight I am just making a plea to God. Lately I have felt very lost and unsure of where I"m headed or what I am supposed to. I try to find my way to the right path, but on my own I am unable to let go of the burdens of my past that hold me back. Tonight I am make a plea to God to help guide me and show me the way. It seems I still try to make myself good enough to over come my sins before coming to him instead of allowing his grace to heal me. Tonight my plea is for God to show me how to let myself go. To give me the strength to admit and acknowledge I am nothing and unable to fix my problems on my own and that I can not make myself good enough for him. I am not good enough and will never be good enough for God, without God. I am a sinner, I will always be a sinner, and my plea tonight is for God to remind me that although I am a sinner I can be forgiven and made whole, but I will never be able to make myself whole I will never be good enough for God, until I let God heal me.
Tonight I am not discussing a devotinal I have recently read or a song I have heard. Tonight I am just making a plea to God. Lately I have felt very lost and unsure of where I"m headed or what I am supposed to. I try to find my way to the right path, but on my own I am unable to let go of the burdens of my past that hold me back. Tonight I am make a plea to God to help guide me and show me the way. It seems I still try to make myself good enough to over come my sins before coming to him instead of allowing his grace to heal me. Tonight my plea is for God to show me how to let myself go. To give me the strength to admit and acknowledge I am nothing and unable to fix my problems on my own and that I can not make myself good enough for him. I am not good enough and will never be good enough for God, without God. I am a sinner, I will always be a sinner, and my plea tonight is for God to remind me that although I am a sinner I can be forgiven and made whole, but I will never be able to make myself whole I will never be good enough for God, until I let God heal me.
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